It has been quite some time since I last posted here. Part of it was life getting in the way, but ofcourse that is only because I let it. And though I feel guilty over it, at the same time it has enabled me to discover something I have never seen before.
When I gave my life over to the Lord, last November, I knew it wouldnt be good times and roses all the time. I knew eventually I was going to slide back into old habits and patterns of thinking. It has happened before and ofcourse it would again. Because I am not nearly strong enough to handle what temptation, sin and pride have waiting for me.
But this time, it is different. Because I felt out of place instead of comfortable. Empty instead of happy. Lonely instead of being held. And reminded of His love instead of abandoned.
Because over the course of just little over 6 months, He has worked in me. Changed me from the inside. And that reflects in the very things I used to use as distractions!
I used to frown upon all those religious posts than came along on my social media and raise an eyebrow over the “Blessed Christmas” cards we sometimes got.
But my oh my, things have changed!
I sent out Christmas cards with baby Jesus, last December.
On my Facebook I find regular posts from “Desiring God”, I am glad to be member of a group called “People Sharing Jesus”… And every sunday evening I get the opportunity to follow a live stream of a Vineyard service.
In my e-mail inbox I find several blog updates from fellow WordPress Bloggers who are more loyal in posting regularly than myself, about their journey in faith… and I receive regular emails from pastor Rick and Lifeway for women.
On my Pinterest account, amidst of all the crocheting and cardmaking stuff, there are scripture quotes, Bible journaling examples and those cute little memes from the Little Church Mouse.
And when I turn on music to listen to while I am making cards, doing household chores or crocheting, it is worship music from Mercy Me, Zach Williams or the Casting Crowns instead of the drinking and cheating songs that country music is built upon.
So even when I am not actively searching for God in my life, He is present. EVERYWHERE !
And tonight I just had to share that with y’all. Because I never would have believed it, if anyone would have told me a year ago, that He would be so present in my life. I still am amazed at how faithful He is, even when I am not! Even when I don’t visit Him in His House, He wants to live in me.
I know, I am nowhere near an experienced Christian. I know, I have a lot of work to do, roads to travel. But that doesnt scare me or discourage me anymore.
Because I don’t have to work alone. I used too understand the lines Marty Stuart sang…. But now I FEEL it!
“I am a lonesome pilgrim, far from home
And what a journey I have known
I might be tired and weary but I am strong
Because pilgrims walk but not alone….”
Marty Stuart – The pilgrim
Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.